Hope

So whats going on that is the big question, right?

Short version would be as follows: Happy, busy, kids, work, drama.

So where to start...The lawyer has been paid and I hope to have the divorce completely done in the next 4 months or less. I cannot wait to be done with it all! I still have not received one single penny of child support from the EX. He has been out living it up...new sports car, new tattoos, whatever he feels like buying. Oh, he has been working on being the super cool dad for the kids too. Buying them expensive gifts that they don't need and promising them more things on top of it. In the end they will be the ones who will be hurt the most when the money runs out. Someday, Karma is going to swing through town and smack him upside his head, knocking him on his ass. I will be watching from a distance and laughing my ass off. I get to be the non-fun parent, I have to make sure they have food, clothes, shelter and be there for them every single day. I hope that one day they will see how I did the best I could and appreciate what I did do.

I finally had to break it to the kids that we have to move...this was upsetting but not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I cannot afford to live in this 5 bedroom house anymore. I am looking at this whole experience as a new start on life. I told the kids that they need to look at it like an adventure that we are all traveling together...a new place, a fresh start, new neighbors, new friends, new bedrooms. I know that this is going to be so hard on them but I really do think I have the best kids in the world! They will make it through and we will all be happy in the end.

I am really just trying to stay positive through this whole time in my life right now. May god bless my friends that check up on me every single day to see what is going on and how I am doing. I am so blessed to have each and everyone of them in my life and don't know what I would do without them. I know I can call them to vent, laugh or cry...they are there for me no matter what!

I can honestly say that I am so happy right now it is almost scary to me...I have a new found hope in life that I never thought was possible ten months ago. I actually have hopes and goals and dreams for my future! I have been so excited by the whole idea of it lately that I am wishing it would hurry because I want to get to the good part. But, I know that all good things come to those that wait, right?

I think I have been waiting long enough. Years actually.